Moving Forward

Reviewing your possible options, the what-could-have-beens, the what-should-have-beens, you will realize that there's no turning back. The only way to go is to move forward. Yes, I wished to become a doctor and even took a pre-med degree, but here I am stuck in the world of cubes looking for my way out. But I don't think I want to be a doctor anymore. I wasted so much time already. There's no more time left for studying the human anatomy amongst the fresh grads. Or maybe there is, but again, it's too damn late.

While I was skimming through updates and comments in Facebook, I read one of my Biology classmates' comments regarding surgery. And it struck me, I should have been doing this already. I should have been stitching somebody's skin by now. There was this sense of elation as I visualize those surgical equipment and the mechanics and procedures and gamuts of medical terminologies. I wished. I just wished that I am among these people running around the hospital corridors, busying themselves with clinical reports and diagnoses. It's done. It's over. But, I didn't regret it if you asked me. There are far more important things in life than my dreams. There are my family's dreams, as well. I should feel lucky though coz I have the opportunity to meet more people, more friends, whose lives parallel mine, who experience exact same emotion, scenario, feelings as mine. For this, I am not alone.

As I've said, the only way to go is to move forward. As I take these few steps forward, let me lean back and move a step back as I reminisce a different life if what-could-have-been is now. Carpe diem!